1. I don't know how to smile.
This is actually true in a literal sense. More specifically, I can't smile with my mouth open. I just end up with this weird gaping expression. Mouth closed, it's fine, but the moment I try to smile with my teeth showing... yeah, not going to work.
2. A daily dose of pretentious whimsy.
Creativity and interesting little things are what I live for. My world runs on poetry and the stories going through my head. Not all high-minded subject matters are important but that's why I like them. I want to one day own a library with a section just for unimportant academic subjects.
3. There is only so much hope.
Sometimes relentless positivity is exhausting. I've never liked those reposted Facebook quotes about looking at the bright side and platitudes (such as "It's always darkest before dawn") annoy me relentlessly. If something is bad, I'm more inclined to recognize it as such.
I can't show my teeth when I smile either. I feel like my cheeks puff up like a gorging chipmunk and my mouth leans to one side. But people say I look so much happier and prettier in pictures when I just go for it. I also can relate to your aversion to "relentless positivity." I am happy and hopeful but that kind of peppiness exhausts me.
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